thirteen point five hour day.

the longest day i;ve done, no break.
the toilet was the only time i sat down.

it;s 10.36 and i crave soysauges, a shower & you.

26/7/2010

today so far i have learnt that i can make kooky/cute/punk songs with just distorted guitar and me shouting.

i;m pretty excited.

now i just need a band name.

totes gonna eat some tahini yoghurt and play melodica in the kitchen and write up a resume.

YEH THAT;S MY DAY AND I KNOW YOU WANT TO HEAR ABOUT IT.

p.s. rock on.

perisian carpet.

26/7/2010; game on.

NO !

55 = NU UH !

50 = YEH !

ewe.

one day i;ll be able to grow leaves again.

pictures i lyk;

everyday i dream about what my cafe would look lyk. i would sell succulents and cacti inside as well as make a real great coffee, it would be really cute.

i would still have dark eyebrows.

the one photo i never got a chance to send to you;

eyebrows;

i love them dark and thick.

possibly best ever.

the love of my life;

jim halpert.

this is all i hear from yr mouth;

BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH.

ME; I DO WHAT I WANT !

life continues to throw shit in my face;

i met you.
i lyked you alot, you inspired me.
i lost you.

now; can;t eat, sleep, talk.
everything reminds me of you.
i;m weak & i feel sick 24 hours a day.

on top of everything else.

i just want something good, i want a second chance, i want to be alone, i don;t want to be alone, i don;t want to feel sick anymore, i don;t want to feel lyk death every morning, i don;t want seperated days, i;m sick of taking things one day at a time, i;m over it, it;s been that way my entire life.
i don;t want anymore drama. i;m too young to have all this happen to me.

please just give me something good.

not so righteous anymore;

sea horses;

i read this in eating animals today;

"Sea horses, more than most animals, inspire wonder--they draw our attention to the astonishing similarities and discontinuities between each kind of creature and every other. They can change colour to blend in with their surroundings, and beat their dorsal fins nearly as fast as a hummingbird beats it's wings. Because they have no teeth or stomach, food moves through them almost instantly, requiring them to eat constantly. (Hence such adaptations as eyes that move independently, which allow them to search for prey without turning their heads.) Not terribly good swimmers, they can die of exhaustion when caught in even small currents, so they prefer to anchor themselves to sea grasses or coral, or to each other--they like to swim in pairs, linked by their prehensile tails. Sea horses have complicated routines for courtship, and tend to mate under full moons, making musical sounds while doing so. They live in long-term monogamous partnerships. What is perhaps most unusual, though, is that it is the male sea horse that carries the young for up to six weeks. Males become properly 'pregnant', not only carrying, but fertilizing and nourishing the developing eggs with fluid secretions. The image of males giving birth is perpetually mind-blowing; a turbid liquid bursts forth from the brood pouch, and like magic, minuscule but fully formed sea horses appear out of the cloud."

i thought it was beautiful.

dear skins;

jack o connell, yr real awesome looking in the face slash probably everywhere.

skins however continues to get more and more epic each season as i found out tonight.

current life; working, making out with some awesome dude who has a moo-stache and can proudly tie his hair into a pony tail (i know, he;s really achieved in life) and eating icecream.

this needs to be my bed !

i can just imagine lying in it, staring up and thinking i;m in some dream fairytale.

this is what i want to do all the time;

thank you for always having me in yr bed.

ideas;

DREAMS,

i found the perfect house;

in the perfect area;

with the perfect bed;

i guess this little dude can run around too;

this is when you know you;ve achieved at life;

it;s been a while.

i met you.

pleasantries of life;

skittles

fruit tingles

arrested development

best coast

YES, YES, YES, YES and YES !

i wish i could take out the guns.
replace the guns with a hoodie.
YEH BABY.

POSITIVITY !

for the first time in a month, i woke up happy & ready to go.
it felt amazing, i actually wanted to study & wanted to fulfill my ambitions.
i felt lyk i could do anything.
i want to do everything.

it was a good day today.

what positivity can do to you;

exam;

mental problems combined with a 9 am exam monday morning = fail.

fail squared.
fail cubed.
fail foured.

NEW CAREER MOVE;

i decided i want to become a super-model.
until i saw this;


now i just want to do anything totoro does,
(really i;d still lyk to be a super model.)

BEACH HOUSE;

recently pur-chased the first album, it;s amazing. every album is mind blowing. there is no existance without beach house, they make the world more beautiful.

pink forest;

yr adora-bubble !

things guaranteed to make one feel better;

• the american office
• bike rides
• plants, succulents, cacti, the whole sha-bang !
• ice cream
• a nice tasting pasta bake
• a comfy bed with comfy pillows
• macbook with wireless internet, with the american office and wallpaper of a rainforest as well as holding pictures of succulents and cacti and bicycles.
• TOTORO ! x totoro x totoro x totoro. (you can never have enough totoro !)

i real lyk my bike x alot.

if you haven;t watched the american office, you need to, you haven;t lived.

two words which make me freak out;

general anaesthetic,

TOTORO ! my one true love,

my housemate bestowed this picture for me, i must say she made my day, week, life.

she understood my feelings for totoro & that makes me real happy.

totoro, you will be my favourite forever.

you & me baby;

the epic lifestyle includes;

TAB bets,

high waisted real tight black jeans,

snorting coke to get thin and not buy food because you only have $15 for two weeks,

barfing,

makeouts,

sick fixed gear bikes or 'fixies',

real cool watches,

mad beats,

giant building sized goon bags for those memorable times,

miniature donkey, for that long term investment, you know ?